Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Road Trip...

So we're driving out to New York this week with the kids to visit the in-laws..this will be the kids first long car trip. The furthest Dane has ever driven is Waco..nothing like throwing him into the fire head first with a 24 hour car ride!!! Now that I have put it in writing I have to wonder what the F@#$ am I thinking???

On a serious note though, I am terrified. Terrified of having my kids on the road, terrified of the whackadoodles out their driving and not paying attention. Noone prepares you for the anxiety you will have when you become a parent. I never used to be such a paranoid patty about such things until 9 years ago....

September 2001 a dear family friend was murdered on the street I grew up on. He was stabbed to death for trying to stop a neighbors car from being broken into. When I got the call to get to the hospital my life changed forever. That was the day I realized I am not untouchable. That God can't stop bad things from happening just because I pray before I fly, or get in the car. As a result of that day I find myself frozen with fear. I force myself to travel, let the kids go with grandma for the night, etc...

Funny thing is, I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to always be so afraid, I want my kids to live, go on adventures and know that I support them and want them to spread their wings...the question is how do I do it without feeling like I am going to puke?

Sorry for being so deep tonight...this blog is also my way of purging myself of all the crap in my head. Aren't you so lucky? :)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Virgin Blogger...

Ok, so I am new to the blogging world but think it will be a fun way to capture all of our day to day fun and new experiences as my little "jumping beans" grow, aka Skylar (3 almost 4) and Dane (2 1/2). Please do not read into my "day to day" wording as literal. I will not be updating this blog daily. I have a hard enough time getting things completed throughout the day already. Oh and for those of you that check punctation, paragraphs, etc...I will do my best, but don't criticize or I will delete your ass!

Kisses...
Tiffany